letter to mother

Through the door I see u and god i feel like crying 

I know the disappointment ran deep 

deep as to love you have for me.

so much to pay for 

but you were punished too..

By my hands.

By my doings..

that my mother was the worst punishment 

they handed me


i handed it to me

.. i thought i was tired

tired of  life,

I am tired 

just tired of being 

some one who hurts you

and makes you cry when thinking of the


even though the past was great



so sorry

i pray 

and i have my faith

and now i have you 

my mother 

i love you 

and i will pray i never lose 

what we have, the love, trust, and having fun — everagain

— Apple dumpling